Assalamualaikum....
Hi y'all.... Its been rough for few weeks for me... And something had happened...I had a miscarriage... Just few weeks maybe... Ok so this is what actually happened
3 weeks earlier I admitted hospital for a very sharp pain on my right below abdomen... Very pain..spent 4 days in that hospital.... After discharge, a day after I had a brownish discharge.... I'm confused and wondering what the heck is that?! Checked on Google (Google is my new bff since it have everything lol) and it shows that it's Implantation Bleeding.... My first thought is OMGGG!!!! Ok, I admit I do get a Lil excited about it...I might be pregnant ya know heheh.... So wait for another few days & get it checked.... Using Clear Blue Digital Pregnancy Test .....waiting ....waiting...n waiting.....( 5 mins approximately) and I screamed for happiness......It says "I'm Pregnant"!!!! Ohh..for the love of joy...... Like I'm gonna be a Mom soon! heheh.
Despite of all the excitement & in a good mood, suddenly I had a bleeding coming out like period (it's super duper painful!!) I just leave it for a while. Took MC a day cause can't bear the pain. Feel like your waist & hips tearing apart! Went to work the next day thought I'll be better if got busy with my work. Apparently, I was wrong. It got painful ever. I'm feeling feverish + strong headache. Next day took MC & get it checked. Went for scan (a better scan) and the doctor told me " Hey, you were pregnant". I was like....what?? Was?? Yeah Was pregnant but it's consider as Bio-Chemical pregnancy. Means the fetus didn't form perfectly. Here's the details for Bio-Chemical pregnancy (most people preferred to call it Chemical pregnancy instead)
What Chemical Pregnancy Means:
The term chemical pregnancy means that the miscarriage happened at a point that a missed period and biochemical tests, such as an hCG blood test or a home pregnancy test (checking hCG in urine), were the only evidence that you were pregnant. The miscarriage happened before an ultrasound could have shown a gestational sac.
When the pregnancy develops to the point that ultrasound could confirm the existence of the pregnancy, the term becomes clinical pregnancy. Thus, a chemical pregnancy would be a miscarriage before the fifth week of gestation -- or within about week after your missed menstrual period.
Symptoms:
The primary symptom of chemical pregnancy would be if you begin to have vaginal bleeding shortly after having a positive pregnancy test. Blood tests reveal low hCG levels that are decreasing rather than increasing.
Causes:
Doctors believe that chemical pregnancies happen for the same reasons as most other miscarriages –- probably because of chromosomal abnormalities in the developing baby. It is hard to know for sure what causes these early miscarriages, however, because it is nearly impossible to retrieve any samples for chromosomal testing.
Symptoms of a miscarriage include:
~ Bleeding which progresses from light to heavy
~ Severe cramps
~ Abdominal pain
~ Fever
~ Weakness
~ Back pain
Yeah so that's the meaning for it & came to my surprise that I don't feel really sad at first, then few days later I felt devastated totally. I used to misjudge by some of the group that I was too desperate & so on I even say to myself "if only I knew earlier & never listen to other comments saying I was too early to check it or even worse TOO DESPERATE enough to get pregnant! "I should have just follow my guts!"
I cried and talked to my husband & he comfort me. I feel like I've killed this baby? But I think back, There's must be a reason for all this to happen & don't be sadden about it. It's God's decision to make it happen & if it didn't better things will come in the future In Shaa Allah. God's will....I understand some going to be moms had this & how they overcome. Like I've learnt from some of my colleagues & friends of how they overcome this sad news and how they move on and keep praying for a miracle to happen In Shaa Allah.
Never get sad with God's decisions & have faith for another miracle to come.....
